Let It Seep

If we are serious about our goal of becoming a capable, dignified, virtuous woman of noble character, we will have to do more than casually read the Bible.  We have to meditate on it so it seeps deep down into the fiber of our being.  If we want to be women who can stand firm in the face of Satan's onslaught of temptations, then we need the Word of God on our lips. ~Donna Partow

When I read the above excerpt today, I realized how much I have slacked in my devotion time.  I have had my prayer walks, but my prayers have been cut short due to other distractions rambling in my brain. For one, I've been distracted by all things "back to school."  I'm now anxious to get started with our homeschool year, and because of my excitement, I have spoke vague prayers and skimmed through my Bible reading ("casual reader") so that I can set my focus on classroom set up and curriculum review. 

It's interesting how quickly a person can feel depleted, though.  I sometimes feel that way with my husband.  When our schedules pull us in two different directions, it doesn't take long to feel the distance between us, until we hit pause and get reacquainted.  That is how the past couple of weeks have been with my Jesus.  I feel myself drifting. I feel like I have looked up and found myself standing on a deserted island wondering how I got there. I feel a bit empty.  Does that make sense?  This is nothing new, though.  I have found myself on that empty island many times.  Thankfully, He always calls me back.  Sometimes it is simply the empty feeling that calls me back.  Other times, it is a struggle or worry that calls me back.  This is the case this time. Struggle. Worry.  As ridiculous as it may sound, it is the struggle and worry that I'm thankful for.  Because of it, I find myself pausing and turning back. I turn back because I know how exactly painful life can get when I go it alone.  And I just can't do life alone.

We have to meditate on it so it seeps deep down into the fiber of our being.  The school year is about to begin and I need my "guide book" even more than ever.  I need to meditate on the Bible. I need to let it seep deep down into the fiber of who I am.  Because who I am determines what I do and what I do could mean all the difference in the life of one. 

Come near to God and he will come near to you. James 4:8