Finding Strength

         I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Matthew 19:26

 

It has been an emotionally draining week.  But like many obstacles in life, lessons are always learned, so for that, I am thankful.

 

I want to be useful.  I want my life to be worthy of breath and existence.  I step out in life welcoming tasks that I can feel good about and then flop in a heap from emotional exhaustion.  I wonder how I got myself in this state and how do I get out.  I know many have experienced this realization.

 

I found myself overwhelmed with responsibilities and began questioning my competence.  Homeschooling my oldest was much "easier" than it has been with my youngest.  Realizing that my youngest learns differently and trying to find the most suited learning techniques has been quite the challenge.  I should mention that my daughter is coming along well with her education and I don't foresee any distressing future issues.  With that being said, we still struggled this week and I sat exhausted and in question. 

 

Along with my feelings of incompetence in this homeschooling area, I beat myself even more trying to balance photography and church responsibilities.  "I'm going to disappoint people." "Why did I sign up for this?"  " Why did I say, 'Okay' to this?" "I don't think I'm good enough for this." Again, I sat in total emotional exhaustion.

 

If those feelings were not enough, a discrepancy (that I did not ask for) with an extended family member would certainly push me over the edge.

 

Why? Why am I feeling overwhelmed and incompetent during this season of life? Why am I questioning myself?  How do I succeed in all of these areas? Is it even possible? Or do I just "throw in the towel"?

 

And then I read this:

 

Nothing is impossible for you

because all things are possible for the God who lives within you.

There's no obstacle too great, no wall too high, no valley too low.

You can get through it, over it, beyond it together.

With Him, you have more than enough...

you have everything you need

and you're everything you need to be

for His purposes to prevail in your life.

Holley Gerth

 

I sat in wonder and amazement that my God would reassure me that my purposes will be fulfilled with Him.  And that reassurance is enough to pull up my bootstraps and charge forward.

And so, I begin my day feeling revitalized and very much competent!!

 

Let's Do This!